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Trying to Focus on the Gratitude of Productivity
I admittedly have not been doing great on my plan to write every morning. Life continues to throw challenges our way and to be honest – I’ve been tired. Its far easier to scroll my phone in the morning than force myself to do something productive. But last week I managed to work out every day despite multiple things that could have thrown me off track. As I sit here this morning staring at the glow of our beautiful Christmas tree – I feel motivated and decided its time to add another improvement to my schedule this week. The things that have *sort of* kept me sane in the last…
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Trying to Protect My Girls’ Rights
While her little sister enjoyed a sleepover at a friend’s house a few weeks ago, I decided it was time to introduce Zoe to Dirty Dancing. I have a whole list of movies I’ve been dying to introduce Zoe to, but with her crazy schedule, its a rare night when we can watch a movie together. It had been close to 20 years since I had seen the movie and yet, I could still recite most of it, as well as sing the Kellerman’s theme song (much to the dismay of both my husband and daughter). The first time I saw the movie I was 10-ish – we watched the…
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Trying to Get Back on Track
A little over two years ago, Zoe and I launched our website, and for a little while we did pretty well posting sort of regularly. Then life happened and it fell by the wayside. The funny thing is, I have SO MANY posts I have started and not finished. Like I closed THREE before I started writing this. I write a lot. The problems are – sometimes I write just to vent about things and realize it would be bad to actually post it, sometimes I chicken out for fear of offending someone, and more often than not, I just don’t prioritize time to write. Writing makes me happy, so…
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This Song Reminds Me of You
My daughter recently bought a sweatshirt that says “this song reminds me of you” on the front. It was a limited edition “drop” – she set an alarm on her phone to remind her when it went on sale, it was a serious, stressful effort to make that purchase. And all I could think is “why do you want that particular over-priced shirt?” But then I started thinking about all the times a song reminds me of a specific person, place, or time in my life. For instance, when I hear “Girl on Fire” by Alicia Keys, I think of driving Zoe to my parents so we could go to…
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So Long 2020!
I’ve been debating what to write as a 2020 recap for the last several days. I still haven’t quite figured it out, but as the hours of this strangest of years are (thankfully) ticking by, I decided I should just stop debating and share my somewhat jumbled thoughts. It goes without saying that this is the most bizarre year any of us has ever lived through – and hopefully nothing of this sort will ever be repeated again. But for me, I’ve spent a good part of it trying to focus on all the good that has happened – we are all too well aware of just how shitty it…
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Trying to Remember Gratitude in the Midst of Chaos
Last week got heavy for me. As I looked back over the posts I wrote shortly after Heather’s death, it began to weigh on me again. And while I feel it is so important to make other’s more aware of suicide and its devastating impacts, I also cannot let those consequences pull me down. While my intent was to keep posting things, life got a little busy and a little subconsciously I stepped away from posting. I thought about it a lot, but didn’t do anything beyond that. The title of our blog is my life’s motto, I will try a little bit harder every day to achieve my goals.…
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Repost from 6.8.18: Trying to Help Others
As the launch of our website coincides with National Suicide Awareness Month, I felt it was important to share these posts again. They are hard for me to read because of the rawness, the realness of it all. If you are reading this it means you are loved, you are needed, YOU matter. Its been three months since Heather’s death by suicide. And as that anniversary ticked by I thought about all that has happened in my life in the last three months besides her passing. Nothing spectacular or especially noteworthy, but life has happened, daily life stuff that prior to March 5th I would have shared with Heather and she…
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Repost from 3.23.18: Trying to See the Light
I originally posted this on my Blogger site in 2018. This post is hard for me to read, but Zoe is proud of what I wrote and asked me to reshare this on our new site. Its an uncomfortable subject, but as tomorrow starts National Suicide Awareness Week, it seemed the right time to re-share this. Two and a half years ago today, on March 5th, 2018, my best friend since kindergarten, at 28 weeks pregnant, died by suicide. This is the first in a series of posts I wrote about that life altering event. A few days a week I start my work day with a writing prompt journal,…
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Trying to Overcome Adversity
We posted this on our Instagram on 06.02.20 – the 2nd day back to practice after quarantine – the day that altered Zoe’s practice for almost the entire summer. Thankfully we’ve come a long way since then! This was Zoe’s first post for our joint endeavor and I think she did a pretty good job! 🙂 Zoe will post an update to this ordeal very soon! Today definitely did not go as planned. Go back two days, and I was ecstatic to be getting the opportunity to get back in the gym. I was ready to reinvent myself, starting completely from scratch. The first day back, I exceeded any expectations…
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Here We Go!
It’s been way too long since I’ve really written anything. I don’t know why other than so many thoughts have been swirling in my head. It feels like there are so many varying thoughts and opinions right now – some far-too heated to comprehend. I have definitely spent far too much time in my own head thinking about these things, and too much time worrying I will offend someone with something I write (because it seems lately someone is ALWAYS offended). I just have avoided putting pen to paper to avoid everything. Not the brightest idea when you are trying to launch a blog, but taking a note from the…
