Trying to Get Back on Track

A little over two years ago, Zoe and I launched our website, and for a little while we did pretty well posting sort of regularly. Then life happened and it fell by the wayside. The funny thing is, I have SO MANY posts I have started and not finished. Like I closed THREE before I started writing this. I write a lot. The problems are – sometimes I write just to vent about things and realize it would be bad to actually post it, sometimes I chicken out for fear of offending someone, and more often than not, I just don’t prioritize time to write. Writing makes me happy, so I’m going to TRY to make it more of a priority. I’m going to try to make time for writing every morning. I have about 20 minutes every morning between Zoe getting on the bus and waking Zara – I’m going to try to make that my time to write, instead of my time to scroll the time suck of TikTok. I’m also going to try to make more of an effort to post on our Instagram. Why am I writing my first blog in a really long time about what I’m going to try to do? Because I’m putting it out there to be held accountable for it, to manifest it. I always encourage my kids to focus on what matters – how they are spending their time – I need to make sure I’m practicing what I preach. 

The last year has been especially hard for our family. We’ve had some serious mental health struggles and in coping with everything that was going on, I kind of forgot to focus on what helps me. This happens so often in life – you’re so busy trying to survive each day that you sometimes forget to focus on the bigger picture. Over the last several months, as we’ve emerged from some of the tougher times, I’ve realized the big goals I set for myself pre-pandemic – had been completely forgotten. I found a goal list I had made in 2019 and I was shocked by how much of that had all fallen by the wayside. Some of it was unavoidable due to the pandemic, some of it was caused by dealing with life, some of it was sheer laziness, and some just completely got forgotten. I would be devastated for my children if they set goals and then didn’t work there butts off to achieve them. And when I look at it from that perspective I’m devastated for me. I had big hopes for this blog/website when we launched it, but I let life get in the way and stopped pushing. So here I am trying to get back on track and achieve some of those goals. 

I have so many drafts saved – I’m not sure any of those will ever make it to the website, but it gives me some good ideas about where to start. Mental health continues to be a major topic of conversation in our house, so that will continue to be something I discuss in my writing. There are so many things that impact our mental health and the state of the world right now seems to just fuel that fire of stress and anxiety. But it won’t be the only thing I write about – our lives are crazy and sometimes we all just need to share a story because its just so outrageous and we all need a laugh. Who knows…it will depend how I feel when I wake up each morning. For now, I’m just happy to have some words on paper and feel like its something I can share. And with that…its time to go wake up Little Z…